Julian writes: -
We are under ant attack. A convoy of little soldiers marches along the lip of our rusty enamel bath intent upon a destination which will provide some moisture. But the bathroom is really for them a secondary diversion, if not a tertiary, or whatever comes after that. Any room will do but the primary target is definitely our dining table. On previous occasion they feasted upon Ian Linton’s legs, but now they seem determined to run around in a demented manner, hoping to hide under anything that’s placed on the table, especially if there’s any moisture available. So lift up your glass of juice and a small platoon of ants scatters, rest your arms on the table and our ticklish friends make human exploration their objective. We seek to repel all borders with the arsenal of weapons available to us. These are about as much use as the football team with the same name. (Cheap shot – excuse the pun and apologies to Sam and Andy) We can’t remember the last time it rained, maybe about 3 months ago, and the sandy dust is whipped up by a north wind reminiscent of a well performing sauna. So the battle with the mad insects is lost and they appear on every surface known to man. Our only solution? Beat a retreat to wintry England, where hoping for rain will not need to be high on the agenda.
We return to our “home” in mid-November grateful for so much, understanding so little but with changed hearts. Massive thanks are due to all of you who have accompanied us on our journey, be it on the blog, or here in beautiful but devastating Angoche. We could list the projects undertaken and what has been accomplished and think it would impress, but we haven’t been on this journey to make an impression. Our gratitude for the funds sent, the prayers sent, the people sent, must be recorded here. However, we can’t stop and say “we’ve arrived, we’ve done what we needed to do”. We are grateful too for our lack of understanding which is enlightening. Can we be confident as we nestle into our vulnerabilities? Can we embrace our uneasiness and discomfort? Can we learn how not to accept the unacceptable? Can we tell other people how they should live? We invite you to explore these questions with us, but as we said before, don’t look for answers, but rather responses.
Our challenge – how do we continue a journey, not returning to the path of the very same point we left it at. Your challenge maybe is the same as ours – not so much where is your journey taking you, but more significantly who is your journey about?
When we arrive we’ll try and unfold some of this stuff with friends and family. We’ll undoubtedly be asked “Did you have a nice time in Angoche?” Maybe some obscure answers like “the ants won” will be the best response.
Final words? Thanks to Annie for more than surviving with me for the last 15 months. I’ve taken you to some awful places, but you’ve done much more than endure. Your prayers sown into the sand of the Koti people have born a fruit beyond measure. You must be mad – thank goodness.
Annie writes:
So how do you sum up so much in a few brief words? Julian has documented much of our journey here, but I wanted to add my thoughts – perhaps not quite so eloquently, but I’ll give it a go.
I have had to share my testimony (in English and Portuguese) quite a few times over the last 18 months or so, in answer to the question “what are you doing and why are you doing it?” It has become perhaps a bit of a cliché but I believe the truth is that my story is not just an “Annie-story” but a “God-story” and there is more to come. I have been able to do some amazing things not because I am amazing – pretty ordinary in fact – but because God is amazing. And to add to this, I can now say we have met some amazing people here too. The truth is the same for them – because God found them and has led them on a journey too. They are pretty remarkable and we both have the utmost admiration for them. There is no doubt that life is very tough for them here. If you have read just the odd snippet of this blog you will know what everyday life means for them and what a challenge it is just to survive from day to day. Of course they don’t know what it is like to live in the affluent West, so comparison is neither necessary nor helpful. This is their “normality”, as your life is for you. But in this “normality” of real poverty, through being with these great people, we have had a deep richness added to our lives.
We are not entirely clear what we will do with the blog as it is so connected to this part of our journey with the Koti. We are planning a trip back to Moz next year and our friendships here will continue to draw us to Angoche in the future – even though it appears to be one of the most difficult places to get to on the planet! If any of you want to join us on that trip, please get in touch. Who knows? It could be that in 2, 4, 6 years time, God is asking if you are prepared to come and walk with the Koti.
I think, I hope, we are changed people – but only time will tell how changed we are. The language is confusing but we know there is no way we can “go back”. We have moved on; others, including those who we are closest to, have moved on too and so at least for a short time our paths have diverged. The result is we are now in different places. So how do we physically “go back” to the UK whilst at the same time continue our journey with some sense of forward momentum? That perhaps is the challenge, both for others to realise and for us to negotiate. Where is home now? Following two years in Lesotho, we considered we had two homes – there and the UK. On that basis we now have three. But we do believe that there are other “places to go, people to see”, as is the old adage, so we doubt it will remain at that number. How? Where? When? – These questions have yet to be answered. Our desire is to be shaped by the future so we will hold things loosely as we arrive in Maidenhead shortly, not settling down to “business as usual” but with our focus on the journey forward and the route to it.
I hope this is not too much of a cliché as well, but there is no way we could have done what we have done without you walking with us, too. Thank you, thank you, and thank you again. The support we have received through prayer, finances, kindness, interest, visits, emails, phone calls, texts – and more – has been wonderful, overwhelming and reduced us to tears at times. (Sometimes tears of laughter as well as the other sort!) Memories? – we have lots of them which we will try not to bore you with too much. Yes, sufficient photos to produce many “missionary slide shows” time and time again. You have permission to say “stop!” to us when we have shown you our beautiful sunset shot for the nth time.
At the risk of sounding like an acceptance speech at the Oscars, just one more thank you. This goes to you: Kathy, Christopher, Samuel and Hannah. Normally it’s the kids who leave home, not the parents. We hope that some of what we have “invested” in Mozambique will be part of an inheritance amongst the nations of the world that you will connect with, and will benefit from in the future.












































